Back to the Flow

the remnants are still there.but I've changed. earlier I used to feel something is missing if I do not talk to her for one day. But, now I don't call her..neither do I expect her to call me up. we are back to the relation called friendship.

but love never ceases...it always comes back..even if the medium is different( thanks deepti, for telling me this:P)

I'm in love..with life.
I enjoy watching Disney channel. I enjoy listening to music. I enjoy small things of life. I enjoy the glow of the moon.
and once again I enjoy spending time with my 1st love:books.
I love to read again( though not the books of my curriculum)

thanks...I'm back again..with a new love called life. and the journey will continue.

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The End???

The love is dying...the emotions has ceased to exist.
so there's no more desires...
until someone again succeeds to bring the lover out from this debris called dwaipayan.

goodbye friends. now this blog will be updated only when this heart will feel love...again!!!

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Tagged!!!!

Adi tagged me to do this. well, it's a cleaver move to made me post something in this lazy blog. there are a few rules of the tag

1. name the person who has tagged me
2. write 8 things about me
3. tag six people.

ok , #1 is already one. so I'm doing the main thing.

it's actually a difficult job to mention 8 things about me, when I'm full of so many bad qualities. anyway. there's no harm in trying. so here it goes:

#1.I've sinusitis and as a result most of the times I've a running nose. and yes it's running now.

#2.I love to write letters, not only as email, but on paper with pen. though most of the letters never reach the one for whom they are written..I still write. and I prefer to write after midnight.

#3.I've an incorrigible childish mind. if I like someone, I irritate them so much by bugging them, that they get pissed at me and stop all contacts.It hurts, but I never learn from my mistakes and thus I keep on loosing all my friends and loved ones.

#4.I love to skip bathing some days...well, it conserves water.

#5.I've a really crappy sense of humour, but I really believe that my sense of humour rocks.

#6. I think I can join advertising and that will really suit me... will it?? only time
can say.

#7. My english sucks. well, though I can say that being taught ABCD at 6th standard is a reason for this, but the main reason is that I never tried enough to learn it properly.

#8. I love writing ... and though so few people visit my blogs and even fewer comment on the posts, they all are really important to me as every single comments boost my confidence a little bit.

well, as very few people visits my blog( I'm sure the no is less than6), so no use of tagging anyone.

The Walk Never Taken!!

people are constantly asking me to forget her and move on.. well' to be honest, i have , though partly. now I can locate a thousand(no no, not that much), hundred--no i think 10 flaws in her and which are really annoying. But at times I just can't help but fall helplessly at her charm..
weeks ago, I went to college and keep my belongings at the pg lab upstairs. from there I came to the entrance of ur dept to fill my bottle with cool drinking water. and I was walking towards the aquaguard through the around 100 mitres long corridor....
and, she appeared at the othere side of the corridor. she was getting in the depertment. I knew we'll cross each other and she will enter the lecture theatre by the corridor. but to make the walk a bit longer , i started to took small and slow steps.

I was walking towards her, she 'apperntly' towards me.... and unknowingly I wished the path to become to windmills, so that we can walk ceaselessly facing each other. I wished for the walk to be never ending....
we came close to each other, she enter the deptertment and I went to fill my bottle...

later that day, me. she and a common friend(her best friend, I suppose) went to do some photocopy. we felt like having coconut water. so we three went to have it, when we were leaving the shop...a song was playing in the radio..

" ho baas agar tum humare sanam
hum to sitaroon me rakh de kadam
sara jahan bhul jaye
baas nagme tere pyaar ke gatee hi jaye"
(darling,if only u be mine,
i'll be on the cloud nine
the world will stop exsisting
i'll keep singing a ballad in ur love)

naturally. my mood had a uplift. we went and had the coconut waters. she suddenly said, to her friend that she is paying..I was even more delighted. she finished and went back to the shop. we finished and were going to get away, the vendor said,"she has paid only for 2"
I paid for mine.
not only for my coconut, but for my mistake, too.

working in my dream

tomorrow is the lab exam of cytology molecular biology and plant tissue culture. fought with lab copies and tried to write them completely....as a result went to bed with a backache....
even in the dreams i was estimating DNA and RNA and were thinking which chromosome should pair with which one ........

save me God!!!

Resurrection!!!!

after 1 whole month I'm again writing...and I'm writing that there would probably be less posts these days...exam is from may 26th...and my preparation??the less I talk about it is the better...
by the way, our relationships have improved a bit...though the chemistry like the initial stage of our friendship is still missing (and I doubt whether it'd ever return!!), we talk these days....I mean 2 to 3 sentences per day, that too related with our curriculum...
2 days we went to the metro station together....
but then.........

it doesn't matter anymore...My crush is over..now I can locate loads of flaws in her...and I think she can find 10000s in me.. but whatever, she'd forever hold a special place in my heart...

that's all...
(and I have to complete my lab copies by next monday....tuesday is the deadline of submitting them!)

Alienated in My Own Land

Botany Dept, Presidency College, my 2nd home. but now I feel totally like an alien here.. It's really hard to be friend with my classmates as all of them are non-presidencian. tho there are 2 who are just like the presidencians. well, i'm not a snob. neither i'm saying that my classmates are bad. they are pretty good on their own.but, the majic is not here anymore. I mean ....well, see;that they they were calling each other by the names of characters from"kyunki saas kabhi bahu thi" . and today when i use my habds to get lunch frm somone's box, two of them behave as if I'm contaminating the lunch. no wonder, my appeite was gone.

and after spending 2 days with my old friends, it's unbearable!!!thank God!!I've 2 of my presidencian seniors, who are doing their research in our dept. and the fun is that, i can act without any inhibitation when i'm with them, though they are my 5 year's senior. but I cant behave like this when i'm with my classmates.............

pray for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grasshoppers

Finally I joined the grasshopper's club. had it for the first time at my friend's place just a few days ago. and I liked it. though I took only a few puffs, it gave me a good kick. i simply loved the tip-tip sensation in my head. and I think it's better than fagging. so....I'm a grasshopper

book fair

i'm having a cold war with her.it started for a silly reason,but the reason doesn't matter.anyway, today she gave all of us her birthday treat with another friend. i decided not to go there but finally went,after getting 2 calls(one of which was frm her)

we all went to book fair after the treat. i was roaming around alone. at the evening, i met a common friend(a very good one).she said,"have u seen him?"
i said,"whom?"
she:"her boyfriend, they are there"
me: "no i haven't, neither i'm interested in seehing her boyfriend" .
but before 2 minutes elapsed, i started roaming around aimlessly. my subconcious mind was telling me the reason but i was denying it.

subconcious:"so u are looking for her boyfriend?didn't u just say that u dnt wanna see him?"

concious:"no, not at all!i'm just walking."

subconcious:"oh yeah??????"

concious:"ok !!i admit. i just want to see the person who defeat me just by walking into her life a bit earlier!!but i'm not interested in her anymore.it's over"

subconcious:"hmm..we'll see"

so i looked for them, but all in vain.finally realizing what an utterly worthless person i'm, i joined the cue for the bookstall selling erotica.

I'm utterly worthless!!!:(