The Walk Never Taken!!

people are constantly asking me to forget her and move on.. well' to be honest, i have , though partly. now I can locate a thousand(no no, not that much), hundred--no i think 10 flaws in her and which are really annoying. But at times I just can't help but fall helplessly at her charm..
weeks ago, I went to college and keep my belongings at the pg lab upstairs. from there I came to the entrance of ur dept to fill my bottle with cool drinking water. and I was walking towards the aquaguard through the around 100 mitres long corridor....
and, she appeared at the othere side of the corridor. she was getting in the depertment. I knew we'll cross each other and she will enter the lecture theatre by the corridor. but to make the walk a bit longer , i started to took small and slow steps.

I was walking towards her, she 'apperntly' towards me.... and unknowingly I wished the path to become to windmills, so that we can walk ceaselessly facing each other. I wished for the walk to be never ending....
we came close to each other, she enter the deptertment and I went to fill my bottle...

later that day, me. she and a common friend(her best friend, I suppose) went to do some photocopy. we felt like having coconut water. so we three went to have it, when we were leaving the shop...a song was playing in the radio..

" ho baas agar tum humare sanam
hum to sitaroon me rakh de kadam
sara jahan bhul jaye
baas nagme tere pyaar ke gatee hi jaye"
(darling,if only u be mine,
i'll be on the cloud nine
the world will stop exsisting
i'll keep singing a ballad in ur love)

naturally. my mood had a uplift. we went and had the coconut waters. she suddenly said, to her friend that she is paying..I was even more delighted. she finished and went back to the shop. we finished and were going to get away, the vendor said,"she has paid only for 2"
I paid for mine.
not only for my coconut, but for my mistake, too.

Incorigible me!!!

yesterday we had our cytology,molecular biology and plant tissue culture mock practical test.. we all spend all the time finishing our lab copies and could not prepare for viva. so everyone was highly tensed when we got to know that 3 of our teachers will take the viva together.. naturaly everyone started collecting infos from classmates...sharing in its pure form was going on...

there was a calculation which only she knows how to do.. we all copied it form her lab notebook. but we could be asked about it in our viva. so I called her over and asked her about it. she started explaining...
and...
...
....
it never happened before..her face was only inches away from mine..i was looking at her..tried to understand what she was saying but all I could see was the movement of her tender lips...and I had an urge to kiss her...but I controlled....

I was so sure that it's over....but

by the way, viva was sort of okay.and ao one asked us that particular question!!!!

working in my dream

tomorrow is the lab exam of cytology molecular biology and plant tissue culture. fought with lab copies and tried to write them completely....as a result went to bed with a backache....
even in the dreams i was estimating DNA and RNA and were thinking which chromosome should pair with which one ........

save me God!!!

Resurrection!!!!

after 1 whole month I'm again writing...and I'm writing that there would probably be less posts these days...exam is from may 26th...and my preparation??the less I talk about it is the better...
by the way, our relationships have improved a bit...though the chemistry like the initial stage of our friendship is still missing (and I doubt whether it'd ever return!!), we talk these days....I mean 2 to 3 sentences per day, that too related with our curriculum...
2 days we went to the metro station together....
but then.........

it doesn't matter anymore...My crush is over..now I can locate loads of flaws in her...and I think she can find 10000s in me.. but whatever, she'd forever hold a special place in my heart...

that's all...
(and I have to complete my lab copies by next monday....tuesday is the deadline of submitting them!)

sterile mind

it seems that i'm undergoing through a sterile brain period.. can't think about any decent topic to write a post on....

Alienated in My Own Land

Botany Dept, Presidency College, my 2nd home. but now I feel totally like an alien here.. It's really hard to be friend with my classmates as all of them are non-presidencian. tho there are 2 who are just like the presidencians. well, i'm not a snob. neither i'm saying that my classmates are bad. they are pretty good on their own.but, the majic is not here anymore. I mean ....well, see;that they they were calling each other by the names of characters from"kyunki saas kabhi bahu thi" . and today when i use my habds to get lunch frm somone's box, two of them behave as if I'm contaminating the lunch. no wonder, my appeite was gone.

and after spending 2 days with my old friends, it's unbearable!!!thank God!!I've 2 of my presidencian seniors, who are doing their research in our dept. and the fun is that, i can act without any inhibitation when i'm with them, though they are my 5 year's senior. but I cant behave like this when i'm with my classmates.............

pray for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Surrounded By Books

the day before yesterday I got a rare chance to enter the science library of our college. I mean we can enter the library anytime, but at that time, I went to the big room filled with books!!!!!!!!and man!!!!!!what a wonderful place it was! i went there with one of my senior to locate a book she needed, but even after looking for 10 to 15 minutes we couldn't find the book. but i found something more. the stacks of books, some from 1900s some even older..silence broken by only our voice and the sound of the fans.......it was not less than a adventure. and i tried to see some books by dusting the filth of the decades......
but finally we came out. and the in charge was able to get the book once we got the call no of it from another copy which was with our proff.

anyway, it was an adventure to remember......and as a memento, I've got flu!!!!!!!!

UPDATE: yesterday i was sneezing like hell in the class and by the time our lab has started, my left eye was blood red. sir asked me to take a tab as soon as i see a medicine shop. and the next moment I saw a hand giving me two tabs, it was her. i took one and returned the other tab. and it did help a lot. should i thank her and replace her tab?????what do u say?????

Grasshoppers

Finally I joined the grasshopper's club. had it for the first time at my friend's place just a few days ago. and I liked it. though I took only a few puffs, it gave me a good kick. i simply loved the tip-tip sensation in my head. and I think it's better than fagging. so....I'm a grasshopper

It's Over

Finally the crush's over. and we are still not talking. actually we are talking, but it's one sentence a week.the friendship has died. but i'm not sad. i know we were good friends. and it died of a silly reason. but if the friendship died of such a silly reason, it has a weak base. so it's better not to restart once again.

so, the chamber of my heart is empty once again. and I don't find any applicant as long as my eyes can see.[sigh!!]
again single in this valentine's day!!!!!!!but i'm not sad.

'it feels great to be in love, but it's greater to be out of love. you are a free bird again":- dwaipayan de great!!!

book fair

i'm having a cold war with her.it started for a silly reason,but the reason doesn't matter.anyway, today she gave all of us her birthday treat with another friend. i decided not to go there but finally went,after getting 2 calls(one of which was frm her)

we all went to book fair after the treat. i was roaming around alone. at the evening, i met a common friend(a very good one).she said,"have u seen him?"
i said,"whom?"
she:"her boyfriend, they are there"
me: "no i haven't, neither i'm interested in seehing her boyfriend" .
but before 2 minutes elapsed, i started roaming around aimlessly. my subconcious mind was telling me the reason but i was denying it.

subconcious:"so u are looking for her boyfriend?didn't u just say that u dnt wanna see him?"

concious:"no, not at all!i'm just walking."

subconcious:"oh yeah??????"

concious:"ok !!i admit. i just want to see the person who defeat me just by walking into her life a bit earlier!!but i'm not interested in her anymore.it's over"

subconcious:"hmm..we'll see"

so i looked for them, but all in vain.finally realizing what an utterly worthless person i'm, i joined the cue for the bookstall selling erotica.

I'm utterly worthless!!!:(

1st and 2nd week of 2006

what to write about the 1st week?it was totally overwhelmed by the college elections.it'd be a nice experience to share, but i'm giving it a miss. and 2nd week was not special from any side. anyway, i think i would better write about an incident in a funny manner than just putting it as it comes. but i've to work on to write the 1st one yet. so wait....

the starting

she has got back to her boyfriend. I know I have no chance. but still, just after opening my eyes in the morning;I think of her.

getting started

I'm starting this blog as a platform to write. I want to write... and i'm starting that by writing a post per week. this post will be about my life as it comes...

i'm a novice. but yet i'll try. and i do expect that the blogosphere will guide me through this journey by providing their valuable advises and suggestions.

I'm inviting everyone to be a part of the feedback community.I'll start writing from the 1st day of the coming year....

hope i'll get u all beside me in this journey.